You believe that God is one; you do well. Even the demons believe—and shudder! (James 2:19)
At one point in my life I was quite sure that I believed in God, and not just belief, but strong faith with a steadfast relationship. I was the missionary, worship leader, counselor to friends, and I even wrote devotionals for nearly a year. Then I met real life and felt my foundation shake in ways I had never felt before. Now, I’m trying to figure out how to return to faith with more than just belief.
The verse at the beginning of the post marks something I struggle with. I believe in God, I definitely believe in the Bible, and I believe in the holy Church that’s meant to be wed to Christ in his return. I would willingly debate and stand up for the foundations of Christian faith and present them as the only way to truly live. I am a firm believer in Christianity.
The issue is that I seem to lack faith and follow through. I don’t regularly attend church, I spend my money primarily on my desires, I never pray, and I just don’t have a relationship with God. I believe in God, I would say that I have intellectual knowledge of God, but I don’t have faith in God.
I know that this situation impacts me on a day to day basis. I don’t have that Rock foundation I used to. I don’t have the peace that surpasses understanding. I don’t get to rely on the comfort of sharing a God ordained moment in the middle of the day. There is nothing that I enjoy by being outside of faith and retaining the knowledge of God.
In addition to my own struggle, I know I cannot be the only one in this position. It is easy, even comforting, to think that believing in God is enough. The trap of believing without faith make Christianity look easy and attainable for anyone, even people on their own strength. The reality is, however, that believing is not enough.
So what must we do?
Peter said to them, “Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.(Acts 2:38)
Repent and learn to lean on the Holy Spirit who is alive and well in this world. All we have to do is stop living our lives for ourselves and begin focusing in on God’s will for our lives. It’s an intentional redirection of priority to God in all situations and it’s not easy. I think the best interpretation I’ve heard is “It’s never easy, but it gets easier.”
Are you in a similar faith situation? What steps are you taking to repent? What has helped you repent in the past? Let me know, because I’m ready to make this change too.